Dictating: baby, female baby is poured out through E-mail, although there is no in-depth communication with her, but her between the lines is permeated with tangled.
(a) The day after breaking up with my ex-boyfriend, I was in a very bad mood and hung QQ.
I seldom add strangers, that night who decided to add me, I will add who, and he chat.
Z was added to me that night.
Because of my work, I was online almost every day during that period, so I often met him and chatted with him without a word.
At first, I still have a grudge. After getting familiar with him, because he is a stranger, I took him as the object to talk to, and poured out my repeated feelings to him after being disappointed in love.
Gradually, I felt that he understood me very well. Our personalities were very similar, and we had the feeling of being bosom friends.
So I called him Big brother.
Later, even if we were not online at the same time, we would leave messages and encourage each other.
After talking for more than two months, he was betrayed by his girlfriend and couldn’t get over it.
Having had similar experiences, I was naturally comforted and encouraged.
In this way, slowly along the way, we chatted for nearly 5 months, chatting has become a part of life, can feel the warmth of being cared for, also have the happiness of paying care.
Over the past five months, we’ve had a great conversation.
He gave me his cell phone number several times and said he could text him, but I never did.
Sometimes he would suggest meetings, and I would turn them down.
But to him, I have a good impression, and he in the message, also always said that I was his little beauty, he will miss me.
I think, if my birthday, he said to meet again, I will no longer refuse, it is a gift to oneself!
But it didn’t last until my birthday.
(two) dormitory colleagues that for a while also brokenhearted, I and she once walked very close.
She also often chat with a strange netizen on the Internet. When that netizen chats with her, he often makes great emotion by the topic and is more extreme. She thinks that person is very similar to her ex-boyfriend and wants to confirm.
I casually asked the net name of that net friend, stunned to discover my QQ also has her that net friend.
I don’t remember when I added him, but I certainly didn’t talk to him.
Since then, on QQ, then pay extra attention to.
The result discovers unexpectedly, her that netizen and Z’s QQ often online at the same time, IP is consistent.
I asked Z about it, and of course he denied it, but I still doubted it.
One night, a colleague wanted to send a message to the same person, and I had the idea that she should send a message to Z to see if it was the same person.
The result shocked me very much. My colleague said that the number Z gave me was her ex-boyfriend’s mobile phone number!
Z later said he knew from the beginning that I had added it on purpose, but didn’t expect me to add him.
At the time, my colleague was having an affair with another boy, and Z wanted to find out more about her.
After that, Z and my colleague got back in touch.
I tried to help Z recover my colleague, because I found his pain and persistence in the chat very touching.
My colleagues also know me as Big Brother, and the three of us sometimes go out to dinner and movies together.
I act as a brain, and Z and I text each other a lot.
My colleague kept hesitating and said to calm down.
At the same time, I exchanged more and more messages with Z, and I felt that his views were similar to mine.
And he, too, said he liked me more and more.
I know, this is not supposed to be ambiguous, after all, he is a colleague’s ex-boyfriend, and may become a colleague’s boyfriend again!
I’m trying to stay out of it, stay out of it.
But by then, I was already upset.
I think, should be Z’s care, consideration let me have formed a habit.
(3) On the day of my colleague’s birthday, I sent a message to Z, saying that the ambiguity between us would end on this day.
After sending my colleague back that night, he sent me back because I was no longer living in the dormitory. In the car, we talked for a while, and he took the initiative to hold my hand…
We didn’t cross the line, but we were close.
I don’t know myself, I always reserved, calm, this time is what?
!
Maybe, I like Z!
Since then, I have repeatedly struggled in the pain and conscience of leaving, but it is difficult to extricate themselves!
Between Z and Z, it’s like boyfriend and girlfriend, but I have no right to say, and I feel guilty.
For him, all my bottom lines and principles are completely gone, for him, I would swallow my pride, do anything, even feel very happy.
I don’t know if it’s true love.
And Z always said that he couldn’t let go of me. He felt comfortable and at home with me.
But he never gave me a result. Every time I asked him to make a choice, he always avoided it.
At one point, Z was ignored by colleagues.
A while ago, she told him that she liked him, but she was afraid that they would not be happy in the future, so she still could not be with him, but she did not want him to find again. She said that both of them were single.
Now they have broken up, but colleagues still call Z occasionally to ask for dinner or help, Z does not refuse.
Understandably, they’ve been together for almost 10 years.
My colleague said that next year, if she can’t find a more suitable one, she will finally choose Z.
I asked Z, “What do you really think, what do you think of our relationship?”
At first, he said, You will not stay with me because you will consider the pressure from your colleagues and public opinion.
But when I said I didn’t care, as long as he decided to choose me, he said I didn’t know him and would tell me a lot about him later.
I don’t know what to do with him.
I once asked, with no respect for my pride: if I would wait for my colleague to choose, if my colleague’s groom is not you, I have a chance?
He just said sadly that he could not let me go, but he could only be my eldest brother all my life. He told me to find someone else and not to wait any longer.
Saying he doesn’t deserve me is for my own good.
Actually, I get it. It’s all just excuses.
But, you know, I’m the kind of guy who doesn’t give up until he hits the wall.
I want Z to give me a reason to stop, even if I make one up.
But he wouldn’t.
(four) also once again cruel, decided from now on two people are just ordinary friends, refused to answer his phone, do not reply to messages and messages, can often never survive a week.
Heart, is really very painful.
And Z, said to do my eldest brother, but every day is still concerned about the phone constantly, text message content is still hot.
He said he liked both of us in his heart.
Yes, I am really angry!
But he also said he was destined to lose us both one day!
Often at this time, I really do not give up, do not want his words one day really become a fact!
I really don’t know what to do now.
I know, it’s a tough road to be with Z.
His objective conditions, such as culture and age, will encounter resistance from relatives, needless to say, the criticism of colleagues may also make me unable to continue to work in this unit.
After all, no one knows they’ve broken up yet. Everyone thinks they’re still together.
If, he would say very firmly, he wanted me and would marry me, maybe I wouldn’t mind giving up the job.
But the way he’s acting, it makes me wonder if I’m worth it.
A lot of good friends say I am silly, one eye can see this man foot foot two boats, quality is not good, I also silly into the heart.
They say Z is to use me as a comfort, as a backup.
My friend asked me, after 10 years of relationship, she can give up, and how many days will love you?
Will you stop chatting with strange young girls on the Internet?
He may like you, but he doesn’t want to marry you!
If I really think about it calmly, I would think so, but when I think about it, I have done something I never thought I would do — stir up other people’s feelings, so I still think I can’t judge Z.
I am too simple a person, to him, I am inexplicable complete trust, is that he will spoil me, hurt me for a lifetime.
Every time I see him and I together, I do not hesitate to help when I need the most help, I always think he is sincere!
Is he really intrinsically bad?
Now, I don’t know myself!
Refuse to turn away, never look back, do not contact, I seem to be unable to do;
Continue to entangle, and it is too painful;
Brother and sister, as he says, and yet his actions are clearly not in that realm!
Perhaps, in the world of mortals, the sorrow of foolish men and women lies in this bar, as you say, unable to rationally control their emotions!
I’d love to hear your analysis!
